My intense journey through life

Biography

1958 - born in Barcelona (two children, two grandchildren)
1975 - Studied biology at the LMU Munich
1998 - opened my practice as a naturopath
2003 - Founded and managed the Institute for PraNeoHom®

Art of Life – Life as art

With my work, I not only want to pass on knowledge, as valuable as it may be, but also share the treasures of my own development with my seminar participants and patients. Perhaps you, dear reader, would like to travel with me and learn a little about the landscapes I have encountered in the course of my life?

My journey so far has not been a smooth, flat path, but full of curves, obstacles, mountains, valleys, dark forests and light spring meadows. It has been an intense life full of rich experiences that have required depth and understanding of people and situations.

I originally wanted to become a doctor, but after my tonsillectomy at the age of 16, I knew I had to take a different path. So I began to study biology, first in Munich, then in Bonn and Aachen, in the hope of discovering a scientific basis for my love of nature.

I moved to the East Belgian countryside with my partner and another couple and their three children, where we lived in a small community. We also had goats, chickens, pigs, a loom and a spinning wheel. We spent our time knitting, collecting herbs, observing nature and discovering love.

Studying biology turned out to be a disappointment for me. So at the age of 21, just pregnant, I decided to drop out of university. I married the father of our future son and looked for an alternative living community with him:

In Spain (Galicia) there was a rural commune on the other side of a reservoir that had settled in empty houses without running water, electricity, cars or roads - that's where we moved. The village consisted of around 50 people who had organized themselves economically into families, a herd of around 100 goats and a potato field. We baked bread, fished for trout and tilled the garden. Everyone had their own chickens or other pets. It was there that I gave birth to our second child, a daughter. Because of my experience with medicinal herbs and my own home births, over time I became a healer and substitute midwife.

I met Osho, my spiritual master, in 1982. We moved to the commune in Madrid, from rural life to the big city. Later, the Madrid commune was merged with the one in Cologne. Two buses took the 50 or so members to Cologne, where I lived and worked together with 400 people from different cultures, circles and professions in the hope that we had found a new, better way of life and could now realize it. Three years later, in 1985, our commune collapsed and with it a shared dream.

I experienced the rude awakening from this shared dream as painful and it took me a long time to heal the resulting wounds. It was only after my disillusionment that I was able to realize how much I had subordinated my own intuition to group pressure.

On the other hand, I learned and experienced a lot during this time that I am grateful for today. As a gift from that time, I now take it with me to encourage everyone to trust their inner intuition and to approach dreams of a “better world” with a great deal of mindfulness. Ultimately, however, there is a deeper meaning to every experience we go through. But this only reveals itself to me step by step. Only by coming to peace with what is and with what was can I recognize larger connections.

The past, even past lives, sometimes spill over into the present and want to be dealt with and resolved in the “here and now”. For example, an experience from a previous life as a Jew in the concentration camp of the Third Reich showed me the danger of totalitarian systems and claims.

My love for Osho as my master, purified by my experiences with the commune, has not diminished, but its expression has changed: No longer as self-denying bondage to an organization, but as gratitude for the gifts of awareness and meditation that I was and am allowed to experience through Osho.

A sailing yacht, 15 meters long, in Ibiza, was to become the new center of life for me and my two children. This was accompanied by a separation from my first husband and a new relationship. We earned our money with sailing charter tours. For two years, I lived deeply and happily in harmony with the elements, water, waves, sun and wild nature. Then I was drawn back to India, where Osho was now living in the ashram in Poona.

Meditation, therapy and celebrations went hand in hand in Poona. During this very fulfilling time, I worked as a translator, attended my master's lectures in the last years of his life and continued to raise my two children.

One of the most beautiful times of my life so far began. I experienced many healings and liberation from inner chains. I got to know and love a special healing method, Tibetan Pulsing Healing, and attended numerous meditation and therapy groups.

Freiburg, later Munich, the city where my mother was born, was to become my new place of work after Osho's death in 1993. As I wanted to work in a healing profession in Germany, I decided to train as a non-medical practitioner, passed the exam and became a non-medical practitioner.

In groups, seminars and individual treatments, I began to pass on everything I had learned and experienced in my life to others. I also met my second husband and started a new family.

My own inner search was still not over and so I opened myself up to various satsang teachers who came to Munich. Samarpan became my spiritual teacher and helped me to master the many challenges of life - but also to recognize myself.

My “awakening experience” on March 21, 2000 on Gomera in a retreat with Samarpan in the company of my friend, the satsang teacher Neeru, proved to be the beginning of a new journey, because the disidentification with the mind is only slowly crumbling away.

The time with my second husband came to an end in lasting friendship and closeness, they separated in peace and harmony and moved away from Munich. Largely freed from the mothering duties of my now grown-up children, a time of deep self-reflection followed.

This was followed by a long time at a place on the Ammersee that radiated a very healing energy for me, right on the beach in the nature reserve in nature and silence, where I was able to express my creativity. I am grateful to have found such an idyllic place with its own vegetable patch.

Today I live in my own house near the lake with my chosen family. Two wonderful women, who also work in the healing professions, share these beautiful premises with me. It is a dream come true and I am delighted to have found this nourishing way of life.

I am filled with deep gratitude for the wealth that has come to me in the course of my life in the form of partners, children, friends, masters, teachers, experiences, highs and lows.

I am happy to pass on the love and gratitude that I have experienced in my life in my seminars and personal encounters.